Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Night terrors

Back in March I took Vicodin for a while for my back injury, but in the night I would have night terrors and would kick around violently in my sleep. Since about May I've been taking Tylenol with Codeine at bedtime. Last night and the night before I had such incredibly horrible nightmares that I woke myself up from both so that I wouldn't die in my dream. I'm wondering if it's the Tylenol with Codeine that has suddenly caused problems, or if it's stress related (I don't feel like I'm stressed but my bp was 161/96 before my injection yesterday), or if I'm eating something funny too late at night, or if I'm just having a nightmare week.

Yesterday's dream involved me and Hay in our car trying to outdrive a tsunami tidal wave, but we took a wrong turn and were lifted up on top of the wave. I could smell the blue water as the car began to sink and knew we were about to die then I woke up.

This morning's 3:00am dream did not involve Hay. I was a brunette dressed in a short shirt and underwear outfit and was the slave of a gang of really bad men who used and abused their women. Somehow I had become more useful to them than the other girls and was considered the leader's girl, so I was treated with more respect than the others. The other girls were completely expendable so they were basically raped whenever the guys felt like it, ordered to do really demeaning stuff, smacked around, beaten, or killed. I woke up when something happened that made me think I was about to be killed and I found that my right foot was actually pressed against Hay's back while he slept on his side facing away from me and I slept on my side facing away from him. I went back to sleep and continued this nightmare until again I felt that I personally was in danger so woke up.

I'd rather not have any more of these dreams. I'm glad that I'm waking up before the really bad stuff happens, but when I wake up I'm terrified so my heart is beating really super fast. It's just not good for me.

2 comments:

Kim said...

My mom says, being Korean and all, that you dream more when the seasons change and I've always found that to be true. But bad dreams? Hmmm...

I only have bad dreams if I go to bed upset.

Bearette said...

Poppy, that is some scary #@#&^%. I hope you have a nicer dream tonight.